Thursday, December 02, 2004

Between Mind n Heart


My friend said that we can love a man/woman with our mind, but not with our heart. In ur mind, u state that u love him, but in ur heart u just feel that he’s ur friend like others. Can u do that? Can I? I don’t think so. Well maybe if the situation make me have to do it, maybe I can, but still for me it can’t be called ‘love’.

In other side, have u ever feel u love someone with ur heart but ur mind say no? I have, n I think many people have felt it too in their life. Sometimes we love a wrong person, right? Or maybe we love the right person but not at the right time. Or maybe u have fallin in love with more than one person at the same time? N u’re confuse whom to be choosed? Well guess what? Thank God, I haven’t feel it :p

Now, how if u meet someone who’s really nice, say it he’s only ur friend for the first time. Then he became a best friend, a very best friend, n u begin to feel so comfortable when u’re with him, because he always listen to u, he makes u smile when u cry, he makes u happy, he holds ur hand when u fall.. n I don’t know how he always be there in the right time, when u need someone to company. But unfortunately, he’s not the one that u want for ur life. I mean, u must have a picture of prince/princess that u adore, n be the one who stand beside u in ur wedding, n always be there to love u until the rest of ur life, right? Well, he’s not that prince. Or she’s not a princess that u’re waiting for, that u’re dreaming of for all this time. What will u do? U love him in ur heart, but u love another person (that never exist, or not meet yet) in ur mind n ur heart. Well.. should u wait for the very right person? Or u just love him with ur heart n be sure u can love him in ur mind someday? Actually maybe it’s not something that should be asked. Maybe some people think that if u love someone with ur heart, u must love him in ur mind. But what I think is.. I’m just scared if someday we will feel unhappy because we want more from him, we want him can be our prince that we’re always waiting for. N the most scary thing is.. we can hurt his heart because of it. Or.. maybe he’s the one who feel unhappy, coz day by day he find out that we have a lot of weakness, until finally he realize that we’re not his princess!! Well, who’s crying now? :p

Mmm ‘love’ what a "wonderful" word..

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

A Memory

It’s over.. It’s over.. It’s over..
But even it’s over.. It still will be memories in here.. some could make me smile.. some makes me hurt.. n there will be something that I won't forget always..

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Life is beautiful..

Life.. is beautiful.. msh inget film itu pernah liat kira2 mmm 3 thn yg lalu. Gak terasa waktu blalu dgn cepat.

Hidup.. memang indah.. tp terkadang kita gak bias luput dr kesedihan yg mendalam di suatu masa. I’ve felt it, tenggelam dalam kesedihan yg sebenernya kalo dipikir2 lg, masalah yg ada gak patut tuk ditangisi separah itu. Mmm memang terkadang manusia menjadi makhluk yg sangat bodoh. Menangisi apa yg tidak perlu ditangisi.

Hidup.. memang indah.. tp kita juga tidak bisa memungkiri ada kalanya hidup kita ini berada di bawah. Sebenarnya, apa yg mbuat hal spt itu terjadi? Well.. actually, itu hanya perasaan kita saja. Perasaan kita lah yg bisa menentukan kapan kita berada di atas dan kapan kita berada di bawah. Tp knp ya belakangan ini, seringkali perasaan di bawah itu selalu muncul. Mungkin karena ada yg memainkan perasaan ini? Sesuatu yg menyakitinya? Sesuatu yg membuatnya menangis?

Hidup ini indah.. knp ada org yg merusaknya? Knp hal2 kecil yg seharusnya indah pun dia rusak menjadi sesuatu yg bisa membuat hati ini menangis. Tlalu melankolis kah? Rasanya tidak jika org yg ktnya sayang dan peduli dengan kita tnyata malah menjadi org yg menyakiti kita. Org yg slalu blg kpd semua org bahwa wanita adalah makhluk yg harus dilindungi, disayangi, dijaga, tnyata adalah org yg menyakiti dan membuat wanita itu menangis. Org yg tidak peduli ttg perasaan ini, bahkan tdk pernah sekalipun bertanya untuk mengetahui dan mengerti rasa sakit ini.

Indahkah hidup ini? I think so :) walaupun terkadang hati ini terasa sangat sakit, tp bukan berarti hidup ini tidak indah. Krn dengan melihat ketidakpedulian seseorang, kita jd bisa melihat kepedulian org lain, dgn melihat kejahatan org, kita jd bisa melihat kebaikan org lain, yg terkadang kita lupakan. Org yg sebenernya peduli dan sayang thd kita malah seringkali kita lupakan, org yg dekat, tp tak pernah kita lihat, tp mereka tetap tidak pernah merubah perasaan dan perhatiannya thd kita. Krn itulah hidup ini indah, krn di sekeliling kejahatan yg terlihat, msh ada kebaikan2 yg sangat tulus.

Hidup ini sangat indah, jika kita bisa melihat kebaikan org yg tidak pernah ingin kebaikannya terlihat. Janganlah mempedulikan kejahatan, apalagi mengharapkan kebaikan dr org2 yg berbuat jahat kpd kita. Tp jika semua org memang memiliki kebaikan yg tulus, sungguh sangat indah lah dunia ini :) Mengapa kita tidak memulainya dr diri sendiri? Aku mau :) pasti tidak mudah, tp aku mau..